Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Apologies encompassed

To those who I hurt
But never wanted to:
I dint know any better then
What else could I do?
I had to learn somewhere,
I'm just sorry it was with you.

Monday, June 25, 2007

Settled Scores

I tore up all the letters that I had tucked away neatly in that special nook in my cupboard. I threw the rubble into the drain and waited to see the words dissolve into a somber murk. It was over... finally over (- at least for now - somethings just keep coming back to haunt you).

It wasnt easy... parting with what you hold cherished never is. I had managed to put it off until then, convincing myself with puerile reasons. But ultimately, it had to be done - it was the "right" thing to do and the world seems to think that is reason enough to do it.

A week has passed since then. The bitterness of the parting has waned as if the emotions were never true. All that remains is a sense of relief - relief that I have paid my bills for the month, even if it meant parting with my cherished, hard-earned money. The nook in my cupboard starts filling up with unopened mail.

Sunday, June 03, 2007

Finding Home

I waited by my window
to see him walk by
Hoping one day
to catch his eye.

My fingers curled
tight around the rail
As his familiar form
had my eyes trail.

My heart beat
to the rhythm of his tread
As he walked unmindful
to my feelings unsaid.

For weeks and months
I watched him from my window
Till one day he stopped coming
But never did my desire mellow.

Sitting on my doorstep
one lovely morning
I was sipping at my cup
of coffee and whipping.

It happened in a flash
And there he stood fine
with his eyes firmly locked
right onto mine.

My eyes welled
I felt wetness on the brim
I knew he longed for me
Much as I yearned for him.

He came sat by my side
His hands touched my skin
The thrill was boundless
Like it was almost sin.

My heart pained in the pleasure
I left him and ran indoor
wholly unable to bear
feelings never felt before.

He followed me in
Just as him I started to miss
Then I set supper for us
while he got set to make me his.

As he lapped up his milk
and rubbed my leg against his neckline
I knew he was mine,
My very own pet feline.